Pastor Keith's Testimony

The Deep, Dark, Valley of Depravity

For many years, God was calling me to pastoral ministry. Friends, mentors, and pastors would speak words of encouragement, telling me God would use my life to reach others. In 2017, Pastor Rajesh first told me this, but at that time I was living a double life—active in church outwardly, yet enslaved to pornography in secret. My addiction began at the age of nine and continued for more than forty years, escalating into darker, more violent, and more depraved forms. This sin spilled over into my marriage through infidelity and left devastation in its wake.

In 2022, my sin caught up to me. The FBI raided my home and workplace after I downloaded files containing child sexual abuse material (CSAM). I was arrested and faced up to 20 years in prison. I lost my career at the Post Office, my reputation, and nearly my marriage. By every measure, my life was over.

Our Past does Not Define Us!

As I reflected on my journey, one question haunted me: How did I get there? I had never once been attracted to children in my life—so how did I end up consuming the darkest material imaginable? Looking back over four decades of porn use, the answer was clear: I had been carried along a trajectory, a kind of “pipeline” that dragged me deeper and darker over time. That realization became the foundation of my second book, The Devil’s Pipeline.

My testimony is not one of my strength, but of God’s mercy. What Satan meant for destruction, God has turned into a mission: To tell the unyielding truth of my testimony and warn other Christians of the dangers of pornography.

Into His Marvelous Light

But God was not finished with me. In jail, the Lord showed me great mercy and gave me an assignment to take my testimony to the world and tell the whole truth. At first, I resisted, certain no one would understand, fearful of the reaction I would get. But God pressed me to write, and the result was my first book, Bunk 47. At sentencing, He showed me mercy: instead of decades in prison, I received three years' probation. Six months later, the book was finished, and I began publicly sharing my testimony in churches and other gatherings.

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